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Sometimes I wonder if there was really such an Ideal Girl.
Does she really exist or you make her ideal?
Or you simply take the norms embedded by the people around?
So how would you know if someone is indeed ideal?
Should I say meant for you?
Would there be, in any way, you'll know it?
Or it just happens.
Unfathomable.

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Well...
18 Points About My Ideal Girl...


(1) Petite
(2) Demure yet ...
(3) Straight-Hair
(4) Half-Chinese
(5) Loves Literature
(6) Artsy
(7) Appreaciates Painting
(8) Fond of Photography
(9) Plays Fencing
(10) Enjoys Travelling
(11) Passionate Baker
(12) Speaks Little French
(13) Debater
(14) Hates Accounting
(15) Fashion Is Her Passion
(16) Knows how to drive
(17) Not attracted to tall, dark, handsome guys
(18) Believes that Demure Guys are cool

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Naiinis talaga ako sa mga taong sumasagot sa phone.
I mean yun sa inquiry and gatekeepers!

Early this morning, my mom asked me to call Fontana for a reservation.
We will celebrate there my despeda.

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Answering Machine:
Welcome to Fontana...etc etc....
If you're inquiring for a reservation, press 1.
For whatever, press 2.
And so on...

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Naiinis talaga ako sa ganyan pag tumatawag ka.
Sa bangko, sa school, sa embassy... sa lahat lahat except lang of course sa residence.

Then, I pressed O para operator na!
Ayoko ng maraming ek ek.

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Operator 1:
Good Morning! This is XXXX, how may I help you?

Jom:
I would want to inquire about the reservation and the rates!

Operator 1:
Ok sir! But it's one at a time since each concern has a different local number.

Jom:
Fine

Operator 1:
Ok. Hold on. I'll connect you to this local number.
You can ask both of your questions.

Jom:Sigh... fine... duh??

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Operator 2:
Good Morning! This is XXXX, how may I help you?

Jom:
I would like to inquire about.... (I repeated again what I said earlier... sigh)

Operator 2:
What's the name of the member? How are you related to her?

Jom:
It's my mom's ... sister-in-law
(kasi yun friend or parang sister-in-law ata ng mom ko un may membership, I was tasked to call lang....)

Operator 2:
How come you're not sure?

Jom:
I don't mingle that much kasi eh...

Operator 2:
You don't know, you should know that person... bla bla...

Jom:
Ahhh okie... but I guess... it's non-of-your-business
(parang ang casual niya and feeling close... and wala man lang siyang pasintabi na...
"would you mind my asking sir, but how come you don't exactly know that person?"
After that, parang hi nold niya un phone for like 5 seconds... feel ko na badtrip siya)

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(Last Week )

I called Boracay Regency for my parents' accommodation

Siyempre, meron din answering machine, verbatim greetings and hold on.

Jom:
I would like to inquire about booking... bla bla
Do you have any vacancies?

Operator:
Yeah... we have... anytime within this August
Just book your flight first and send us the details.
Then, we'll book you a room

Jom:
Sure?

Operator:
Yes.

Jom:
Ok. That's good.

(This morning)

We went to Cebu Pacific for plane booking.
After that, I faxed to Boracay Regency yun Information ng parents ko.
Then, tumawag un Regency biglang walang availability this weekend.
Tapos sabi ng girl noon una meron daw anytime... Ano ba???
Sheeeeeeeeettttttttt
Sabi I pa re-book un flight sa weekdays....
Sheeeeeeeeeeettttttt
And may additional Php 350 per person per way for plane rebooking!!!!!!!!
So magkano rin yun? Around Php 1400.
Just for a stupid stupidity!!!!!!!!!!

Grabeee, bukas kelangan ko tumawag ulit...
I need to talk to the manager!!!!!!
Shheettttttttt...
Sana careful yun mga over-the-phone people sa pag disseminate ng information and instructions

LESSON:
Always take down the name of the over-the-phone-person  para kung may mali
Pede mo siya hanapin or i-complain...
Nakakabadtrip talaga pag pa-iba-iba un person  na sumasagot over-the-phone...
Sheeeetttttttt
Nabadtrip talaga ako!!!!

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My sister's Experience...

May tumawag dito sa bahay. Call center peep from SM Advantage.
The guy was looking daw for my eldest sister.
Then wala...
So siyempre in-interrogate un sister ko about my eldest sister's contact details

Call Center Peep:
Greetings! This is XXXX from bla bla... I'm looking for...

My Sister:
I'm sorry, but she's not here...

Call Center Peep:
May I know her bla bla (details)

My Sister:
I'm sorry, but I don't know.

Call Center Peep:
Alright. Thanks for her non-cooperative sister!!!!!!!! (sabihin ba naman yan...)

My Sister:
May I speak to your manager.

Call Center Peep:
We don't have a manager.

My Sister:
Where's your office located?

Call Center Peep:
We don't have an office. We're a call center. (Then binaba ng agent yun phone... Ang bastos di ba??? Stupid!!!!!!!)

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Sorry, basta asar lang talaga ako sa mga people na sumasagot over-the-phone sa mga offices
Either gatekeeper or stupid!!!!!!!!
Of course, not all naman....
Pero sa mga na encounter ko, agrrrrrrrrrrrr

Oh well, control temper na lang and be nice to other people
Though some people are really rude and stupid!!!!!

Yesterday, Zerge, Mica and I went to Trinoma to watch a movie. Typhoon Egay was not a hindrance.  Athough heavy rains fell  hard and a lot of people were expected to get stranded, we didn't mind since it might be the last time we'll be seeing each other before we leave the country. However, a lot of people didn't join us which ended us three enjoying the rest of the day. Nevertheless, it was really fun!

I'm sure that one of the tedious problems in watching a movie is choosing what to watch. Especially when everyone would say "any movie, "I already watched that", and "I'll watch whatever you want,"  the danger would be spending time choosing and ended up watching nothing.

We were choosing between "The Bourne Ultimatum" and "Rush Hour." But then, we wondered what were in cinemas 1 and 2.
It's "A Love Story"

"A Love Story" by its title would say that it's akin to "A Walk To Remember" and "The Notebook" by Nicholas Sparks. It was too later we found out that it's a Filipino Movie. We we're kidding saying that we should watch that long-awaited movie of all times until we ended up watching "A Love Story."

I know you would say that Filipino Movies suck!!! But I would say this movie isn't.

"A Love Story" is all about the never-ending love triangle between 2 girls (Angelica Panganiban and Maricel Soriano) and a guy (Aga Muhlach). Angelica is a flight attendant whom Aga met in Macau during a business trip. While Maricel, a doctor who  assisted  Aga in a beach after his nasty fall,  would seem as the original wife. But no, this movie would say that younger girls are the first wives while sugar mommies are queridas. Weird? Perhaps, for the sake of twist.

I believe I'm still too young to get exposed with this kind of movie. But I would never forget the line about picking flowers.

"wag ka basta-basta pipitas ng bulaklak sa garden at sisirain lamang; because you would never find a flower like her."

This line is best suited for babaeros. Never cheat girls. Girls are like flowers that should be given care and love. They are very special.

One more thing that I learned in this movie is that "sex comes first before love."

Before, I thought that love comes first no matter what. And sex should only be executed after marriage. Yet again, it's not the case anymore; especially that we're now living in a world where sex is not an issue. Even the most conservative girl in the world would have a libido in her body.   

Moreover, cheesy and petty things would count. There was this scene when naughty Aga (while in car) was talking to worried Maricel (waiting in the house) over the mobile phone until not too later somebody rang the doorbell and it was Aga holding
"3 banana-Qs." Corny but it worked.

"The sweetiest thing in love is the cheesiest possible way ever."



Watch "A Love Story". I'm sure that you'll get to know something. This movie is a call to supporting our Filipino movie industry.
From feeling and being a jologs, you can't  avoid but say "Ohhh my Php 130 is worth it!"
 

I went last night in LALAINE'S DEBUT in SKYLINE, WORLD TRADE CENTER.
It was great and was not the typical boring and traditional debut with all the 18 whatever and cottillion (not sure with the spelling).
Only the 18 SHOTS and 18 TREASURES.
It's actually like a casual dinner with a party after.


(Sayang MICA umalis ka kagad!!!!!!!!!)

SANDWICH was there but I'm not a fan of OPM bands and hits.
And there was this another band which I forgot the name.

Well, it's around 12 midnight, Pat, Cristina and I were talking about our FRANCE PLANS and EXCITEMENT...
We finally decided to:

SEPT 2 - leave Manila and stay first in paris (hopefully sure na un flat nila Peabo and Johara, else un tita ni Cristina).
SEPT 14 - go to Pau

JAN 10 -  come back here in Manila (ahhhhhhhhh....)

Hopefully, ok na 'to and will happen as planned...


Anyways, there were DRINKS in the BAR ( FREEEEEEEEEEE) inside the party so we decided to hang-out there...
At first, the waiter gave us this BLUE COLORED COCKTAIL DRINK which according to Pat had a weird taste.
I asked the waiter what the drink was.
It was VODKA ABSOLUTE WITH PINEAPPLE... Ohhhhhh VODKA pala.... hehe

Then, we asked for another VODKA.
(this time kind of concentrated na, but with a little amount of SPRITE....).
Tasted good and had more mind buggling effect... hehe

Suddenly, Pat left because her driver's already there...
Sigh Pat...

Afterwards, Cristina and I decided to have a VODKA shot.
(this time, shooter na... para concentrated and tapos na kagad.... haha)
Fine, I was really turning red na talaga...  but kaya pa naman... hehe 
( I don't drink pa naman talaga...)
Then another guy came (John, Cristina's friend) and we had another shot!!!!
Fond of speaking FRENCH, ENCHANTEE!!!!!!!!! We had two more shots....
( Oh no!!! medyo nahihilo na talaga ako... I went to restroom twice!!!!
Of course, I had to get used to it... maraming PARTY sa FRANCE..hehe)

Another friend of Cristina came (VHANDZ???) and asked for 1 more shot....
It's my first time talaga na uminom ng ganito pero sige fine...
(FREE naman, Php 180 per shot 'to sa ABSINTH.... hehe)
Buti na lang naubos na un VODKA sa BAR, kami na un last shots.... sigh!!!!
Medyo nahihilo na talaga ako but of course I tried to hide it...
Kami ata nakaubos ng Vodkaaaaaa.... haha

But then, arriving in a wrong time!!!!!!!!
My parents were already there outside to pick me up....
I wanted to stay pa and have more bonding moments....
Haaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy...
Night's over....

On our way to house, I was getting TIPSY and TIPSY and DERANGED.....
But kind of slight pa naman... kaya pa!!! hehe
I guess my tolerance level is now increasing... from 0.10% to 10%...
Long way to go pa for a 100% TOLERANCE LEVEL.... haha

Was about to sleep on my bed, I had this ABRUPT FEELING of going to the restroom...
And OMG, I puked a lot!!!!!!!! It's my first time ever!!!!!!! But it's fulfilling nevetheless...
Sigh, I had a good sleep!!!!

I really love this day!
No classes
Hence, no traffic...
The weather was cool and unwinding.
It's my first time to reach Makati in 35 mins from my house here in Teacher's Village.
Wow!!! I hope everyday would be like this.
But then, tomorrow...
Since classes will resume, I need to allot more than 1 hour to Makati from my house....
Sigh!!!
Otherwise, I'll leave the house 6 AM to avoid traffic
Although my class in Alliance is 9 AM. (So punctual!!!)

I am excited to leave the country soon!!!
But, there are some more things that I need to process:

Done:
* French Visa

In process:
* Schengen Visa ( 12 days pa!!!!!! sigh... bakit ang tagal????)
* HSBC and Citibank ATM Card (On Tues ok na)
* HSBC credit card ( 1 or 2 weeks pa!!!!!! pede naman hopefully 1 day...)

Haven't applied yet:
* U.K. Visa ( ang tagal kasi ng schengen eh!!! I need to apply na to UK embassy... otherwise ma move na naman ang flight!!!!!! sigh..)

Well, that's all I guess...
Hopefully, tapos na kagad lahat!!!! hehe

Also, I need to pack my things in my luggage limited to 20 Kilos.... (Imagine that!!! challenge...)
Oh well,  let me think of it 3 days before my flight when everything is already done.... hehe

Sooooo EXCITED na!!!!!!

I am currently studying French at "Alliance Francaise de Manille" in Makati as a preparation for my Junior Term Abroad (JTA).
At first, Learning French was really tough.
Especially that the medium of teaching in Alliance is in French per se, you have to understand words between context clues.
French words were really floating  beyond my  mind.
Nevertheless, I'm starting to enjoy it!
It's just that it takes time and effort.

Favorite Phrase: Respondez S'il Vous Plait (RSVP)

Yet, studying in Alliance, which happened to be quite far from my place, is more than learning the French language itself.
It's about learning how to commute from Q.C. to Makati.
Well yeah, I know how to commute to Ayala Station (via MRT) and Glorietta, but not in NICANOR BEL AIR 2.
My mom sent me there in the first two days of class (I'm now in my 4th day).
Then, traffic was really painstaking ( it would take more than 1 hour from teacher's village to Makati.... traversing the less traffic route!!!)
Since it would take my mom a headache if she sends me there everyday, I have to learn how to commute.
In my third day of class, I left the house 7:15 AM and I arrived in "Alliance" 8:30 AM.
I reached Quezon Avenue Station around 7:30 AM.
And gosh!!!!!! I was SHOCKED!!!!
The queue started not only in the ticket booth, but from the ground floor instead. IMAGINE THAT!!!!
I queued for more than 20 minutes before I was able to take the train.
Not only that, standing inside the train during rush hour in the morning is as if being compressed in a sardines can.
I thought riding the MRT in the morning is the answer to escaping the abonimable traffic in Metro Manina, but then it wasn't.

Furthermore, the journey didn't stop there.
I stepped off Buendia Station.
I didn't know where to go after.
I got lost!!!!
All I saw was the horde of people in a hasty mode hailing for a jeepney or shuttle van.
Lost in Makati, I took a cab.
FYI: THERE'S NO TAXI METER IN MAKATI - IT'S FLATRATE

Jom: Manong, I'm going to "Alliance," it's in NICANOR ST. BEL AIR 2
Cab Driver: Fine. Just pay 70 bucks!!!
Jom: Why?
Cab Driver: It's the FLAT RATE system in Makati.
Jom: Ohhh, I'm just a student.
Cab Driver: That's why it's only 70, it should be 100 bucks actually.

OMG!!!!!!! I almost fainted!!!
Then what, Alliance is only 5 minutes away from the station (It should only be 45 bucks I guess if he used the TAXI METER)

Grabeeee!!!!!!!! FILIPINO MENTALITY!!!!!!!!!!
That's why I want to leave the country soon... and forever!!!!!! ( I hate Filipino attitude and lifestyle stereotypically)

PROBLEM: What do I do on Monday???
DILEMMA
1.) Ask my mom to send me there though there will be an expected heavy traffic.
        [But I feel guilty for the hassle]
2.) Practice driving...
        [I'm still a novice driver...]
3.) Ask my mom to send me to the MRT station and take a cab in Buendia.
         [But MRT is too congested and cab in Makati is expensive.... yet is nothing as compared with the 30-40 Euros Cab in France!!!!]

Ohhhhhh... I wish I could have a driver who'll send me anywhere I wanna go!!!!
But I have to accept the fact that we're not rich and  we're incapable.
Hence, I have to feel and suffer the abonimable experience of taking MRT in rush hour [ Ok lang sana kung hindi jampacked un MRT eh!!!],
getting lost in Buendia Station, and splurging in cab flatfare....



Sigh!!!!:(
 







 

I can't believe!!!
Marketing Oral Defense is over


Yeah... this scary day has come to an end.
But  I would like to say that I learned a lot in my oral defense this morning.
I have two main points I would like to say.

First, Oral defense is not mainly about defending your presentation and paper.
Rather, it's about learning from the points of the panelist.
In this kind of presentation, we have to learn how to concede and accept our weaknesses.
As what one of the panelist said, oral defense is not about proving that your paper and presentaion are right. It doesn't matter whose going to win whether we students who are novice in the marketing arena or the panelists who are experts in their fields. There's no such a thing as right or wrong answer. It's a matter of trying to understand the point of both sides. According to another panelist, whatever we do, they're gonna win, so we have to learn how to concede. Well, yeah... she might be right in our case.

Second, what your teacher taught in the class might not be true in the real world.
We were questioned about our attack and avoid matrix. According to Sir Osi, our marketing professor, as a new challenger in the industry, we can't attack the key players such as equal, splenda and nutrasweet (our industry by the way is the sweetener) because they are already well established and have brand recognition. So, it would be better and strictly advised to attack small players such as Zero and Coco Naura, in which, as if wasn't heard of according to our panelist. Their logic is that since we''ll be distributing our product in the same market and outlets as that of equal, splenda and nutrasweet, we will still be attacking the major players although we say that we will never attack these big players. If we will really be avoiding these key industry players, we should have played in a different ballpark.  Yeah,  I acknowledged  their point. Hence, not all  the things we have learned  in the  class is applicable in the real world.

This is only one of the points to consider. And others are too many to mention.
Sigh.... Sir Osi is really O.C. and Impulsive in terms of marketing paper, but  not all things that he taught us is right the same as that in the real world!!!!!

Walking along the the path facing the football field, I could hardly breathe but took a moment of silence to cherish the beauty of nature. I sat on the bench, looked at the green and vast football field, watched for some players and sneaked at different people. It's kind of weird but sometimes we can't rid the fact that our body needs a moment of silence to reflect and to see ourselves.

It was as if yesterday that my first day of class in the Ateneo started; a surprising sort-of-free-cut (10 minute-class which was supposedly 2 hours) from Sir Ivan Culaba's Physics Lab class. I used to wear my eccentric sleeveless shirts with matching short shorts. I used to hang-out with my old block that wasn't that bonded as compared with my new block. Then, I shifted to BM-H, in which, by the name of the course was not really meant for me. I realized that shifting to BM-H was not really of my seeking for a challenge nor prestige, but rather for the meeting of new and great friends. My decision was indeed the right thing.    

I'm happy with my life right now. My family is not rich, but at least I have the primordial or should I say the basic needs in life.  Although I haven't gotten the  looks,  fame,  and wealth, I would say that I'm contented with who I am. But then, there were moments that I seeked for companion, for love, for care, for affection... for happiness . I'm happy being a single, but I believe that life would have been more meaningful if I have someone to love and someone to care for. 

I know  that person is near me. But proximity is inexplicable. It's hard to find and reach. Perhaps, there is no such a thing as proximity, but rather connection is the word for someone.

Grabeee...

Mayroon talagang INSENSITIVE PEOPLE and MAKAPAL ANG MUKHA....
As in there's no room for shame... but has a lot for EGO....

And mayroon din people who will cover  these things subjectively...
though it's conspicuously seen...

Hey... wake up!!!!

Oh well, that's life!!!
Pooled by stupid and great people...

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Sometimes, dreaming is my last resort to the harshness of reality.

It is in my dreaming where I could have the chance to escape from the PAINSTAKING and AGONIZING demand of marketing.
It is in my dreaming where I could see myself in France, my slacking off in my JTA sem, and my future French English Chinese Girl (Petite)  whom I'm gonna meet in the crest of EIFFEL TOWER.

But then, no matter what... I would and will still wake up, go back to reality, and face the challenges of LIFE...

I'm just wondering.
 What if students go to school simply to learn, learn and learn.

As if we will go to class, listen to our teachers, appreciate the lessons, and don't care about the possible grade we will be getting?
There will be NO GRADES afer all!!!
Don't you think the school would have been a better place for us?
I mean a LEARNING place?

We will make our MARKETING PAPER and OPMAN PAPER not for the heck of A's, B's or even C's.
 Rather, simply for the sake of learning and getting used to it?

We will take our FINANCE LONG TEST not for the sake of CURVE GRADE.
Rather, for the sake of learning finance.

We will learn how to PHILOSOPHIZE not because for the sake of ORALS.
Rather, for the sake of living PHILOSOPHY in our lives...

Oh no! Ateneo would have been a NIRVANA if that was the case!!! hehe

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What if you found out that the JTA school that you thought that's meant for you isn't really anymore MEANT to you?
It's disappointing yes! But again, this is life! It's full of excitement and disappointment...
But it's really hard to hide your disappointment by your BIG SMILE!!!

I woke up Wednesday morning fulfilled and satisfied. As if I have had an unforgettable dream that I could hardly remember. Then, I read my cellphone with a text message from Ate Fe of OIP, "Good am Jom, please come here to OIP asap." I thought it was a surprise but I couldn't hide the fact that there was an underlying nervousness within me. Oh! I thought it was the ACCEPTANCE LETTER that I have been dreaming of for the  past few months... But suddenly....IT"S NOT!!!
 
Hailing a cab in front of our house, I could hardly wait but go to OIP office in Bellarmine Hall. I arrived. Ate fe told me to sit down and she went to the hidden room of OIP in the left wing upon entrance. I thought, it's the time for her getting my most-Awaited ACCEPTANCE LETTER from MANAGEMENT INSTITUTE OF PARIS (MIP). But Oh no!!! It's the around way around actually...

He called Mr. De Leon, the vice president for international affairs of The Ateneo,  to talk to me. At, first, he talked smoothly and gradually... perhaps not to disappoint me. Well, whatever happens, I'd be DISAPPOINTED. He told me that MIP called ADMU tues to tell that they are only offering few English subjects of around 2 or 3 this WINTER SEMESTER, which means that all other subjects will be offered in FRENCH. He called Rudy Ang and discussed about this. 2 or 3 English subjects in a JTA semester is indeed insufficient which means -- GOODBYE MIP!!!

I thought It was also GOODBYE JTA... at least it wasn't and it shouldn't have really be.
 (If that was the case, I would have consumed all the LIQUORS in the WORLD... hehe!)

As a solution, Mr. De Leon called right away other schools in France. ESC-PAU (Ecole Superiore de Commerce), a management school in southern France and is willing to accept us 2 (the other one is Amanda, my partner in MIP). The school even reserved dormitory for us and they would warmly accept us.

But still, PARIS is PARIS!!!

Well, acceptance is the real happiness...

ESC-PAU is actually one hour away from SPAIN. It's a historical place in FRANCE where King Henry IV was born. Also, it is also the place in FRANCE where the FORMULA 1 RACE is conducted. Well, I'm happy na rin! I read a lot about PAU and it was really nice and historical. A place with lots of historical castles, sprawling gardens and rich culture.

I am excited though still... but not as excited before!!!

Well, be grateful always with what GOD has given you!!!


Anyways, although I'm 5 hours away from Paris (via train) 72 mins (via plane), I would still never miss my DREAM and DESTINY... -- to meet the ENGLISH FRENCH CHINESE GIRL in the crest of EIFFEL TOWER!!!

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As I grow older, I tend to meet different kinds of people from different walks of life. There are those who are kind, congenial and gregarious. Also, we can't allude to meet those who are DECEIVING, EGOISTIC and ESCAPE GOATER. Well, that's life. I am getting more mature and exposed to the real world.

 I observed that there are people who would seem to be GREAT and INTELLIGENT, and yet, at the end are deceiving. We shouldn't look at somesone else's being through his way of speaking and action, but rather in his own  being.

Basta, I am really  sabog this day. Perhaps, because of marketing pass or due to something deemed to be as fortuitous event that shouldn't really be.

There are also those people who will DO or COVER everything out of love. Well, I admired those because they know  the essence of love. But then, I pity those people because they do not know how to balance the passion of subjectivity and logic of objectivity.  

I don't know. I wanna sleep.

Basta I hate those people who are DECEIVING, EGOISTIC ang ESCAPE GOATER. I hope they will see the light, the light that will guide them into being  a good person. 

Also, love knows no boundary... but in love, there is a boundary between rationality and irrationality.

Bakit ba ang sabog ko tonight....

I do not know what I'm writing na.

Oh well, we have to deal with all kinds of people.... that's the art of life!!!!!

Hindi natin maiiwasan na kailangan talaga natin makisalamuha sa iba't ibang uri ng tao.

May mga taong sobra ang tiwala sa sarili na hindi na alam kung papaano tumanggap ng kamalian o sabihin natin hindi kamalian, mga punto ng ibang tao. Matalino ka nga oo! Magaling ka sige! Ngunit ang tunay na karunungan ay hindi ang pagiging laging isang nangunguna o ang ating sa sarili ay alam niya lahat o tama siya, bagkus ay marunong makinig, umunawa at tumanggap ng sinasabi ng iba. Wala tayong karapatang husgahan ang sinasabi ng iba dahil wala naman talagang absolutong tama. Ngunit, kung sa tingin mo ay tama ka, na hindi ka puwedeng magkamali, na kung ano ang sinasabi mo ay dapat masunod... nangangamba ako sa ganoong uri ng tao. Nangangamba dahil sa hindi nila alam ang kanilang kahinaan at nangangamba na baka balang araw ay makatagpo siya ng tao, na kagaya niya, na makapagsasabi kung ano ba dapat ang nararapat na gawin. Sinasabi ko lang na matuto tayong makinig, magpakumbaba dahil hindi kahangahanga ang taong nagbibigay ng ideya na sa tingin niya ay lubusang tumpak o angat sa lahat, bagkus ay mas kahanga hanga ang taong pinakikinggan ang sinasabi ng iba upang makarating siya sa sinasabing angat na ideya.

May mga tao rin namang masyadong mataas ang pagtingin sa sarili na sa tingin nila sila lang ang gumawa ng lahat lahat. Hinuhusgahan nila kanilang sarili bilang magaling, nasusunod at ang nangunguna na wala man lamang pagtingin o pagkukumpara ng sarili sa ibang tao. Natatakot din ako sa ganoong uri ng tao. Masyadong sarado ang kanilang pandinig sa iba, tulad ng nauna. Para bang sila na lang ang magagaling,  ang may alam at dapat na laging masunod.  Naaalala ko tuloy yun sa Pilosopiya na kaya tingaturiang inakamatalino si Socrates dahil alam niya ang kanyang katangahan, alam niya na marami siyang hindi nalalaman at alam niya kung papaano magpakababa. Sa mga taong ito, gayundin ng nasa itaas, sana matutunan nila ang magpakababa, ang umintindi sa kapwa. Hindi lang itong mga taong ito ang may kaalaman, baka nga, mayroon mas may kaalaman pa sa mga ito. 

May mga tao rin na tahimik na hindi man lamang sinasabi ang nadarama, kung nasasaktan na ba siya o naiinsulto. Ito yun uri ng taong binabalewala ng mga nauna dahil sa kanilang katahimikan. Ang hindi alam, ang katahimikang ito ang mas may kaalaman, yung nga lang ay hindi nasasabi dahil sa mapagmataas at mapanlinlang na tao. Ngunit, ang katahimikan ng mga taong ito ay hindi man lamang pinapansin ng mga taong nabanggit sa itaas kung kaya't mas lalo silang nagmamataas at nagmamarunong sa katotohanan ay wala namang saysay. Sana yun mga tao marunong magpakababa ano? Yoon bang marunong umintindi ng damdamin ng iba, yun isang senditibong tao? Pero hindi eh... hindi talaga maiiwasan ang pagmamataas ng tao... dahil mortal tayo... dahil naghahanap tayo ng pansin.... dahil sa tingin natin magaling tayo... dahil takot tayong magkamali.... dahil takot tayong maunahan ng kaalaman ng iba... dahil hindi talaga tayo marunong... dahil hindi natin alam ang ating sariling pagkakamali!

Masyadong mataas ang ating EGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wasn't so expecting, I GOT MY WORST GRADE EVER!!!!
(as of now of course, because I'll be taking Major Subjects in addition to Philosophy and Theology next semesters.)

So, here's my depressing grade:

FIL 14             B (ang dali lang ng teacher actually, it's just that i underestimated the course aside from tinamad ako and I HATE FIL!!!)
EC 102           B (well, I'm happy na rin, no one got an A in our class... and to get a B in Rosalina Tan's Class... is good na!)
SA 21              B (Agggrrr, I should have done better in LT's... mabait pa naman si sir, and I got higher B pa naman, di ba umabot ng B+ )
ACC30           C+ (It's a SUNK COST...   .02 na lang B na!!! ang sakit nun d ba? di pa pinagbigyan!!! anyways, don't cry over spilt milk!!!)
LAW 11          C (first time to get a C... sa law pa... ok naman si sir... shitty lang talaga ang midterms)
TH 121           B (I think I deserve what I got.. it's fine with me)
NSTP              B+ (sana kasama sa QPI noh...)
PE 121           A (kung kasama lang sa QPI, baka mag DL pa ko hehe... dapat kasama di ba? kasi acads, spiritual, social and physical???)

This sem is actually the easiest one, but ironically, I got the lowest QPI ever...
Sobrang, hey what's happening to me???
Bakit ba super MR. MEDIOCRE ako ngayon...

So kelangan, this 1st sem... MAGIS na...
Sobrang mag-aaral na talaga ako... promise...
Di na puro tulog na more than 9 hours a day... haha

Hope I get the power and wisdom!!!
and mag DL pa kaya ako ulit? may chance pa ba?
It isn't me I know...

So I have to wake up henceforth!!!!!!!
To do more than what is expected.
To try more than what is given.
To earn more than what is being hoped for!

:]

Do you guys wonder why Hot High-Class Girls always go to the Fugly Guys?
It's not the case for everyone, but in a wider sense it happens.

According to the article I read, girls aren't really looking to a Tall, Dark and Handsome guys.
Instead, they do go for the Confident, Funny and Mysterious.
Even if you are petite, though you came not from the wealthy well-known family, and despite your other shortcomings,
If you have acquired these three traits, you are on your way!

Is it true?
Not for everyone of course, but in general...
Do you agree?

Furthermore, Girls  predict that Hot and Handsome guys would just let them down at the end.
Because steriotipically,  Hot and Handsome guys would  never be satisfied to only one girl.
I'm not saying this because I'm not Hot and Handsome... I am just wonderring...
Discombobulated...

So for those guys who aren't Tall, Hot, and Handsome (like me!!!), we have the chance,
the chance of meeting nice girls -- beauty, brain and talent --
without facing insecurity!

But in reality, I hope it's real!

:]

Everyone needs time.
Everyone needs space.
Everyone needs the time and space where we can be ourselves.

When the world is full of worries and fears,
It's hard to escape.
It's hard to move.
It's hard to see oneself.

What we need is to have the time when we can realize all the
Things we've made.
We need a self-emptying.
We need to give ourselves a free will.

Time heals wound.
Space gives opportunity.
And once we get this both two, we can see the light,
The light in a wider perspective, our own light, our life
Our own!

Time gives us the time to think.
Space gives us the space we need.
And it's what we have now, a short vacation,
A short time to seek our space.

But now, I feel empty.
I feel numb, like a senseless anaesthesia.
I do not now what to say.
I do not know what to do.
I do not know how to see the world in a
Well-lighted place.

Perhaps, it's the time for me to look for someone.
Or should I say to wait for someone.
Someone to love.
Someone to hurt.
Someone to cherish.
Someone to hope for.
Someone to whom I can see the world as it is.

But how?
I'm senseless.
I'm numb.
I'm a hopeless romantic.
I'm a person without romance.
Yet I hope, someone will give me
The romantic romance that will let me
See the romantic me!

Sometimes, the world is ironic.
Sometimes we need time.
But once when we have the time,
We tend to get busy.
Sometimes we need space.
But once we have the space,
We tend to get empty.

I hope
Time will come.
And someone will give
me the space,
The space I'm longing,
The space I need,
The space of mine,
The space within...

I hope
Someone's like me.
And that someone's waiting.
Waiting for someone like me...

Everytime I wake up these past few days...
I could not speak but feel the scorching heat and sizzling atmosphere that ruptures my skin
And yet, still... I'm not HOT!!! haha

Summer is on our way!
It's already the first week of April. In fact, the Holy Tuesday, right?
But then, I can't feel the holiness outside and within our house.
Is there still such a thing as Holy Week?
or
Was there really such a thing as Holy Week?

All I know is that when I was a kid, we were forbidden to play or to do something pleasurable because Jesus Christ is still dead.
According to my grandmother, once we get a wound during Holy Week, it won't heal anymore or it takes time to heal.
So, in the past few years, my family including my cousins and relatives were refrained from doing anything satisfying and pleasing during Holy Week.

Unlike other families who spend their Holy Week in Boracay or outside the country,
my family has the traditional STATION OF THE CROSS in Lourdes Grotto in  Bulacan. 
Acccording to my mom, they've been doing this since few years before I was born.
So that must be around 2 decades! or even more...
Also, we do have the PABASA, the sunged ritual of the pasyon (It's from  Gaspar Aquino de Belen according to Fil 14, right?) every year during the Moundy Thursdays up to the Good Friday. 
According to my grandma, it's the tradition of the family.
It was passed on from generation to generation, from her grandmother and her gradmother's grandmother to the root of the family.
Are we deviated?
Are we deviant?
For sure, we're not desperate...

But still, I believe that it's the best way to spend Holy Week, to spend our time doing something for Jesus who suffered from our sins.

Anyways, If you guys are interested, feel free to visit our house and join our traditional PASYON. ...

Nevertheless, the number of people who visit our house, including friends and relatives,  dwindled as time went by.
So, what does this imply? 
Secularization? 
our  submission  to the modern  world and technology....
or
Pluralism?
the variety of choices we have in this millennium  time...

Still... we are free of what we want to do!

If we want to go BORACAY and get deranged in COCO MANGAS, it's up to us.
If we want to go and have STATION OF THE CROSS, it's our will .
And if we want to do nothing, the choice still lands within our hands...

But then, always remember that the biggest risk in life is not choosing one!

  

I am starting to upload all my previous and recent pictures in my multiply account. Unlike before when I was hesitant or should I say had no time to upload pictures, now I am happy to share it with other friends for some comments and of course compliments.. hehe

I realized that multiply account is a good way to start your cherished memories, smiles and pictures with your friends and family, and the reminisce of the places you've been through. Not only it is convenient and free, but also its accessibility is anytime anywhere. Thanks to modern technology.

I forgot this famous sociologist, but he said that real things are those that do not actually exist.  Like in multiply,  it's like an imaginary  data in the world wide web  yet  it  becomes something real because we perceive that what we see are those things we've uploaded, our memories, our own. Multiply is nothing per se. But multiply is more than what we see. More than what we hope for. More than who we are. More than our  own. It's our life.

But then, is it real? or just we make it real? or do we simply deceive ourselves that it's real?


Feel free to add me in my multiply account and be part of my memory -- wendel882002 -- MULTIPLY ID

Erwin and I, together with Jose and his friend Saunzee (not so sure with the spelling, it's one-of-a-kind kasi), watched Premonition (Sandra Bullock and ...) in Eastwood yesterday. At first, I thought it was creepy and was the typical horror type of film, but then it wasn't. 

Deviated yet interrelated strange events took place in the life of  Sandra Bullock which actually made the movie mind-numbling and perplexing. One morning, Sandra would wake up that her husband is alive, then tomorrow is dead, then another morning is alive again. Parang it's what???

Yet, all these strange events were premonition. According the priest, it  took place to some people a long time ago who as a result were persecuted as witch or neurotic. The plot is complicated, but this complication made the movie catching.

At the end, it happened that Sarah was apparently the reason why her husband died. While driving,  knowing that the premonition is over, she called her husband to have its car turned back. Sarah looking at her husband that everything was over, a drunk man driving a car came and hit her husband Jim. Then, it was the premonition. It happened.

But then, after the movie, you could not control but say.... huh? ok fine? that's it... then what... maybe Sandra being a pregnant woman is another premonition!!! haha.. watch it... :]



After the movie, we  hanged out in BED ROOM to celebrate the graduation of Jose. The place was great and the ambiance was  pleasing. Wearing their blue chic pajamas, the waiters served our food and drinks. We ordered Sizzling Gambas, Calamares and Chicken. Then for our drinks, we tried the cocktails, I ordered Frozen Margarita (parang ice berg, yet it's worth it), Erwin ordered Dry Martini (it's cool and classy, pang corporate look and would likely go with Lamborghini, but then it tasted like isoprophyl alcohol), Jose ordered Zombie (it tasted good that's all I know), then Saunzee ordered  Kamikaze (it's like lemonade with alcohol).   

Freed from Accounting Long tests, Economics Reportings and Theology Papers,  we enjoyed this night.  However, Erwin had to go home at around 10 PM  because of his morning class the following day (grabee sa La Salle, holy week na may pasok pa rin... haha). Besides, it's his first time to drive his car alone so he must gain the trust of his parents.... haha

Guys, sana another hang-out ulit ... It's bitin yet I enjoyed it....  Emba na haha!!!! :]